Jokes about thesis stress have a basis in fact

Bike in a puddle on Merton Street

I am increasingly feeling trepidation about my thesis. There are essentially two reasons for this.

1. Uncertain focus

‘Science in global environmental policymaking’ is the work of many lifetimes. ‘The role of science in Kyoto and Stockholm, specifically’ isn’t an enormously interesting topic. It is the theoretical extensions that arise from the examples that are of interest.

My hope has been that the thesis area would be like an archeological site. I would stand there, amidst squared off sections, and spot something brilliant and surprising and unexamined. Right now, it feels more like being inside a tram car that is passing through a huge terrarium, full of interesting looking animals. The only problem is, I only have until the tram reaches the other side (April) to look at anything, and the tram itself is full of interesting things aside from the view out the windows. To call them ‘distractions’ is to insult the broader Oxford experience, but they do threaten my ability to say something cogent and important about the terrarium to the stern individuals with clipboards waiting in the room beyond it.

2. Ignorance of related disciplines

At least once a day, I speak to someone who agrees that my topic is a good one, and has something that I simply must read about it. In all probability, this is an indication that the topic is too broad (it obviously is, right now). It is also an indication that it touches upon an unusual number of disciplines: from psychology to sociology, politics, political theory, ecology, philosophy, ethics, economics, and history.

I am afraid that, even if I do grapple properly with a few of the big chunks of work on this that exist out there, there will be other big chunks that are entirely excluded from my consideration and understanding.

The solution

As is so often the case, the solution is trepidation-powered reading. I need to be somewhat ruthless in pushing myself to read enough that I will be able to say something new, while not embarrassing myself.

The possibility that this will be my only major piece of academic research is not one to be entirely discounted. A doctorate is no certainty. Of course, the thought that this may be the only attempt, as well as an important attempt, adds considerably to my anxiety.

The Oxford college system

Keble College

When it comes to international students, Oxford could do a better job of explaining the college system and the differences between the colleges. To most aspiring Oxford graduates from abroad, the choice of college is just one of hundreds of boxes to be filled in on the application. More than half of the international graduates who I polled chose their college more on the basis of its location than any other factor.

After a year here, I have come to appreciate differing collegiate cultures. To some extent, that is embedded in a way that really carries over from year to year. At another level, there are fairly wild swings in demographics, temperments, and styles of relationships; this is because a great deal about the graduate intake of colleges is random. If people had a better sense of what (if anything) the Oxford colleges stand for, beyond what reading a few pages in Wikipedia might offer, it might serve both to improve their own experiences here and strengthen and foster the development of distinctive cultures at different colleges.

I chose Wadham College primarily because Sarah P recommended it, and because it seemed to be old, central, and have nice grounds. It has a reputation for being left wing, but I have never seen any actual political energy expended there. The Queer Bop, far from being some kind of affirmation of homosexual equality, is mostly just a self-indulgent and hedonistic heterosexual booze fest. The single best thing about Wadham is probably the beauty of the grounds and gardens but, given that it is not an especially famous college, no Oxford student would have the slightest trouble visiting those unhindered by the kind of bowler-hatted bouncers I have been threatened and expelled by at Magdalen, University, and Christ Church. All things considered, I do not regret the choice, on the whole, even if I do look with envy at the international relations collections held by the libraries at Nuffield and Saint Antony’s.

For incoming graduate students of politics or international relations, I would recommend either applying to Saint Antony’s – if you care about being with a large group of graduates with similar interests and good facilities serving them – or one of the very old, grand colleges – if you care more about the ivied Oxford punting side of things than which books will be in your library. Options in the latter camp include Magdalen (perhaps the most attractive college), Christ Church, University, Merton, and New (founded in 1379). Those are all fairly central, as well. Balliol, Trinity, Exeter, and St. John’s are all nice, central colleges that I know too little about to speak on with any authority.

I am especially interested in what other Oxonians may have to say about all of this. Doubtless, there are many who will disagree, and, quite possibly, some who will take offense to seeing this or that college characterized in this or that way. I only have extensive experience with Wadham, Saint Cross, Nuffield, and Saint Antony’s. Thus, anything written about other colleges should be considered little better than hearsay.

[Update: 7:45pm] All comments above about libraries pertain only to international relations collections. Those studying other things may be presented with an entirely different spectrum of appeal.

Havarti, where art ye?

After a year without Havarti and a long-seeming shift at the Freshers’ Fair, I went out in search of that cheesy comestible. This meant that, for the first time in Oxford, I went into the food section at Marks & Spencer. If there is any evidence of lingering class divides in England, it is the difference in presentation and atmosphere between Sainsbury’s and M&S. When people in Canada talk about the creation of a two-tier system of health care, this is probably more or less what they have in mind.

Alas, Havarti remains out of reach. Your average British supermarket has many kinds of cheese, but this favourite of mine never seems to be among them.

Oxford from above

Wadham College, Oxford MCR bop

As a recent comment proves, there is at least one thing Microsoft does better than Google: display aerial views of Oxford.

Compare Google Maps, centred on Wadham College, with the Windows Live equivalent: enormously superior.

Here, you can see:

Those pointed out, I should return to the overly loud MCR freshers party, and stop worrying about my ongoing student loan appeal dialogue. People should feel encouraged to list more nice Oxford locations in the comments (with links to Live Local photos).

March of the iPods

Today, iPod the Fifth arrived. They are packed much more compactly now than in earlier days. I suspect Apple is cutting costs in anticipation of having to compete with Microsoft’s Zune player, though, as always, it remains to be seen how successful that product will be. Everyone remembers the spectacular failure of the ‘rokr’ iTunes phone.

As regards iPod the Fifth, I hope it lasts as long as the previous four put together did.

In other news, the heating in our flat has suddenly been turned on. It hit my like a tropical blast as soon as I opened my door. I probably will no longer be sleeping in the woolen toque that Sarah P gave me.

PS. For some reason, iTunes 7.0.1 lacks the option to “only update checked songs” to the iPod. Since I was using that feature to keep a collection of songs small enough for the 20GB version updated, it will now not update at all, because the overall library is too big. I have come up with a crude hack (creating a smart playlist that includes all checked songs and having the iPod only update that), but doing so causes the device to only list that playlist, with none of my other smart or normal listings visible. Trying to add them all (even though they are the same songs as the ‘checked only’ list, causes a ‘not enough space’ error. Any ideas?

Doctoral application timeline

Pond in the University Parks, Oxford

Happy Birthday Jessica Berglund

One question I am pondering for the coming year: should I try to write my thesis and prepare for exams at the same time as I am writing the Graduate Record Exam (GRE) and submitting applications to doctoral programs? I will not have enough people to serve as references until I have finished at least one optional paper (at the end of November), and I have been very strongly cautioned not to use references from my undergraduate school. Apparently, this suggests to admission committees that you have failed utterly in your master’s program. Given how odd grading at Oxford is, this is definitely not a message that I want to transmit.

In many ways, it would be wiser to finish this year, then work somewhere for a year while completing my application to a PhD program. Of course, if my personal history shows anything, it is that I am much worse at getting jobs than at meeting any academic requirements. Case in point, last year I got into a master’s program at Oxford, but failed to become a barrista at Starbucks.

Long time readers, what do you think?

Seeking new Oxford bloggers

Oxford is positively laden with newly arriving students. At least some of them must be bloggers. If you are among them, please let a comment with a link back to your site (if you want it added to my listing of Oxford blogs). Likewise, if anyone has found such a fresher blog, please leave a comment that links back to it.

I will not link blogs immediately. Rather, I will wait to see that they:

  1. have at least some real content
  2. have been around for at least a few weeks

Otherwise, maintaining the list would take far too long, and too many items in it would be without much value.

All Oxford bloggers should remember that the fourth OxBloggers gathering is happening on Wednesday of 4th week, November 1st.

PS. Making a link in a blog comment is easy. Just use the following format, replacing the square brackets with pointy ones (the ones that look like this shape ^ turned on either side):

[a href=”http://www.thesiteyouarelinking.com”]the text you want for the link[/a]

That will make a string of blue text that says: “the text you want for the link.” When clicked, it will take the browser to www.thesiteyouarelinking.com. Every bit of the formatting is important, including the quotation marks, so be careful.

Oxford populating with graduates

Last night’s late night laundry-doing brought me into the first substantial contact this year with members of both my program and St. Antony’s College. Having carefully set aside my laundry card and other ‘Oxford only’ cards before leaving for Canada, I have now torn my room apart several times in search of them. When yesterday’s searching proved as hopeless as previous attempts, I managed to trade cash for the use of someone’s card, at a St. Antony’s social event. Having succeeded in activating the machine, it seemed natural to wait out its cycles in the company available.

There, I was lucky enough to see Roham and Iason, Diarmuid – who I showed around Oxford sometime shortly after May Day – and Jessica Ashooh – who is joining the M.Phil this year. The new M.Phils are off being oriented today, as well as learning which supervisors will guide them through this whole complex process. I look forward to meeting them all.

Another upshot of the party was learning about some of the many Antonians who will also be living on Church Walk and adjoining streets during the coming year. Good news on that front arrived yesterday, as well. It now seems likely that I will be able to remain in present lodgings for the duration of the M.Phil program. The prospect of moving during Easter Vacation (when I am hoping to hitchhike to Morocco and at the end of which my thesis is due) was not at all an appealing one.

PS. Mica has a new video online. It is an experimental combination of high action and a stationary camera. Rumour has it that his Arctic Monkeys video has been accepted for the next Google Idol competition. His Hives video won a previous round.

On being an inept and reluctant webmaster

A website I am managing (not this one) is proving exceptionally frustrating. When I disabled the ‘what you see is what you get’ (WYSIWYG) editor in WordPress, I did so because its name was a filthy lie. In truth, what you code, and check, and then check again in every other browser you care to support is what you get. Well, the content management system (CMS) for the other site it like the the WYSIWYG editor writ large: nothing you do actually shows on the site in the way it showed in the editor. Like with the WordPress editor, hundreds of useless tags get added in opening and closing pairs. What’ s more, the CMS has added many layers of complexity to what it, in essence, a very simple site. The only way I have been able to edit tables in one part of the site has been the grab the HTML, edit it using jEdit, then paste it back into the site. This is clearly not the kind of thing you should have to do when you are running an elaborate CMS.

The simplicity of the content, versus the complexity of the management, is tempting me to copy the whole site over to a new CMS that is more comprehensible. Right now, we are using a system called Mambo. In many ways, it is a lot like WordPress. It uses an SQL database to store content, then displays it on dynamically generated pages. I am pretty sure WordPress could actually handle everything this website does, though having it look like a blog would not be acceptable.

Does anybody know of a free CMS that can be hosted using Apache and MySQL that might be easier to work with than Mambo?

New MCR members

Photo of Milan Ilnyckyj, taken by Kate Dillon

Happy Birthday Emily Paddon

Yesterday evening, I had the chance to meet a group of the fresher (first year) graduates at Wadham. All summer, I had been looking forward to seeing who will be joining the MCR. The rate of turnover is very high, partially because so many of the graduates at Wadham are doing one year master’s degrees in law. As such, there is a new clutch with each successive orbit. Any social gathering where you can discuss the effects of river eutrophication on jellyfish is well worth attending, if only as a pause between bouts of editing.

While I don’t generally involve myself extensively with MCR activities, it is one of the important social groupings that exists in Oxford. When having a conversation with someone newly met, from another college, the first thing you generally try to do is name someone in their MCR who they know and, hopefully, like. Program, department, college, and club membership seem to be the principal links between all Oxford graduates.

Speaking of clubs, I need to get back to trying to fix elements of the Strategic Studies Group website, as soon as my brain ticks back into a mode vaguely approximating normal, after last night’s marathon editing session. I have self-prescribed chai and tomato basil soup.

PS. With neither my supervisor nor the editor from MITIR responding to my emails, I am feeling strangely disconnected.